I walked right into this one, eyes open like a lamb to the slaughter with my head bowed down Happily unaware of the butcher’s knife Stupid smile fixed upon my face I should have known it would end like this But you can’t fault a man for having hopes Suffer is such an ugly word, such gross hyperbole But I really should suffer. I owe it to you to drag this out And I deserve everything you would put me through But I’m no Christ I will not kill myself so you can live I will not die for any sins but my own And there will be no resurrection I’m no Christ I will not make the cripple walk I’m only a coward I will never be your martyr I’m no Christ I wish this could be easy The way I pictured it when I played it in my head But instead I’ve gone and fucked things up beyond repair Left you in a storm while here the birds are singing And to break out of this cage I’ve got to break you too and I’m sorry But you can’t expect me to surrender my dreams Chained in a white room with no windows is no way to live a life So I have to be the bastard who ruined everything But I hope someday we can laugh and talk about this We were young and stupid and we didn’t know what we were doing And you will smile and tell me I was right when I said that everything will be okay You will laugh and smile – everything will be okay You will laugh and smile – everything will be okay You will laugh and smile – everything will be okay But you’re no Christ You’ll never turn the other cheek And there will be no forgiveness For the sins that I’ve committed with the best of intentions I’m no Christ But still you nail me to the cross Strip away my freedom And call me a savior I’m no Christ Nail me to the cross Make me a martyr and call me a savior I’ll be your savior Call me Christ

Break her down baby tell me all your lies let me drink in all your sadness let me say all my goodbyes and we’ll laugh together like we didn’t know the time like we didn’t know what happens like I’m still not out of line and I’ll cough blood as I pass out on the floor I’ll ask for your forgiveness but I won’t unlock the door and you’ll tell me all about how happy I would be if I could give it up, but I wont, get your hands off of me Get your motherfucking hands off of me Break her down baby let me start again let me dig a little deeper let me fuck over my friends before I realize that this is how it ends let me smile and get complacent baby we can play pretend I can be the housewife and you can be the cook I can be the needle and you can be the look that I’ll give to myself baby all night long I won’t tell you what’s wrong I won’t tell you what’s wrong You know I’m getting older but I won’t change. This won’t change The things I say to you they won't change Late last night baby I had a dream Where I told you all my secrets and I woke up feeling mean So I took a couple pills and I mixed a couple drinks and then I fell down on the couch where I’d stay out of your reach I wrote a couple songs and I told a few more lies I sent a few late letters because I didn’t know the time But tomorrow’s a new day and maybe we can start again if the holes in my mind can be filled You know we're getting older but we won’t change we won’t change The things we need to prove They won’t change. We’ll stay the same

My lips are sore and I’m afraid I won’t mess it up this time I think I’ll make it through, and do everything I wanted to Your lips are sore and I’m afraid you won’t make it out in time The water’s rising fast, but I don’t think you're the captain I don’t think you’re the captain. Learn to play your part Tell me that you're afraid of the dark and then I will know exactly what it is I need to know and then I wouldn’t have so many questions I wouldn’t have any answers and I wouldn’t need to know I wouldn't need to know Are you afraid of the dark? Are you afraid of angels? Are you afraid that someone’s always watching you? are you afraid your life is out of your control? Are you afraid of yourself? are you afraid to tell me? Are you afraid of all the things I’m afraid of? I am afraid of everything My feet are sore and I’m afraid that I can’t run away this time Superglue strength air, love you’re drowning me in concrete Peel me back. Think of all the flavors that are missing I think that you are missing the point of this exercise and don’t you dare ask me anything about this don’t you dare tell me I’m a liar tell me I’m a liar Are you afraid of the dark? Are you afraid of angels? Are you afraid that someone’s always watching you? are you afraid your life is out of your control? Are you afraid of yourself? are you afraid to tell me? Are you afraid of all the things I’m afraid of? I am afraid of the dark I am scared as hell of angels and I’m afraid that someone’s always watching me I’m afraid that my own life is out of control I am afraid of myself and I’m afraid to tell you Are you afraid too? I’m afraid of the dark I am afraid of lots of things I am of afraid of everything I am afraid of you and I am afraid of the way I feel and I don’t wanna ever feel this way and I don’t don’t wanna ever feel this way Are you afraid of the dark?

I got a little lost at the end of the road I keep my head down ‘cause I don’t want to know If I can’t feel nothing but the wind and the rain I won’t have to ever think about you again And I don’t like questions about good intentions I like to keep you guessing and you won’t understand But I gotta get out of this mess that I’m in And I don’t have time to wait for you to step in So I’ll keep running I got a bad case of the ambien blues so excuse me while I go to make another excuse for my bad behavior and my lying smile and I want you all to know that I’ll be away for a while But I’ll hope you’ll be waiting for me to come back because I’m not confident enough to lead an attack and I want you to know at the end of the day that I don’t believe a single word that you say and I’ll keep running You gotta take a look in the mirror to see a little bit clearer and know that you’re nothing You try to shine a light in the darkness but you know you can’t stop this and why would you want to? I know you won’t miss all the times that we shared but I can’t stop laughing when I think of how scared I am to be just a person who keeps you down and your life is so much better without me around So if I don’t end up finding a home If I never trick you and I end up alone Just do this one thing I ask of you please Promise you’ll completely forget about me And I keep running

Well I’ve got some dirty secrets bubbling under the surface The pressure is building and I’m ready to pop But I’ll keep my silence. I always keep my silence and I don’t think it’s your business telling me to watch my health In my dreams I met an angel. A sweet blonde-haired angel and she told me how to feel, she told me how to love And I obeyed her without question, I obey without a question Tell me what's the fucking difference between heaven and hell? If I told you that I loved you, if I said those stupid words You’d probably say that I was sweet You’d rightly say I was confused but if I told you I was dying, if I talked of desperation I don’t know how you’d react and so I’ll keep that to my self Clarity, self control The things that I lack Arrogance, lack of empathy They’re all I’ve got You say that you’re giving up so where does that leave me? I don’t stand a chance, if you fail then I fail If I was half as smart as you I would have done all of the things of dreamed of by now You’re an inspiration to me Nobody is ineligible for their dreams The German government can fuck it along with anyone else standing in your way So just listen, I know that you’ll make it happen Because if you don’t I don’t know how I’ll stay sane So save me So yeah I’ve got a selfish motive, I know I can be an asshole But I still believe in you and I know you believe in me But there’s so much that you don’t know and maybe you can say the same But I doubt that there is anything in you but purity And I know we all have secrets And I know we have our demons I know that there’s a million things we don’t want anyone to know But I know one thing without question And I know it doesn’t mean much But if anyone deserves to be happy it’s you Honesty, integrity The things I wish that I had Jealousy, addiction My only friends You say that you’re giving up so where does that leave me? I don’t stand a chance, if you fail then I fail If I was half as smart as you I would have done all of the things of dreamed of by now You’re an inspiration to me Nobody is ineligible for their dreams The German government can fuck it along with anyone else standing in your way So just listen, I know that you’ll make it happen Because if you don’t I don’t know how I’ll stay sane So save me

I wish I wasn’t smart enough to steal from you Or at least I wish I couldn’t tell a lie when you ask me where your money went I wish you could see right through me and see what a horrible person I am Let’s get rid of these smoke and mirrors that I’ve surrounded myself with since I was a kid I wish that I had never met you because meeting someone as lovely as you Is something that I wasn’t prepared to deal with And I’ll never be able to tell you what you’ve meant And I’ll never be able to ask you for forgiveness I wish I could laugh, I wish I could cry without regret And I wish I could read the way I used to I wish I could spend the day inside and not feel ashamed of wasting time I wanna get lost in stories and learn something But my attention span is so far gone My head is always aching And I don’t want to disappear but I feel like I’m too late The excitement’s gone I used to wish the night would never end I used to love playing outside The secrets I never plan on sharing seem to slip sometimes And I can’t ignore all the reasons why I can’t help being such a dick The questions that you asked me I’ll get back to someday, give me a week But that week turns into four and now I don’t know what is worse Getting back to you a month late or crossing another friend off my list But my list keeps getting shorter and the time keeps slipping away And I can’t scrape up the courage to say what I need to say So you start to ignore me too And I wish I could read the way I used to I wish I could spend the day inside and not feel ashamed of wasting time I wanna get lost in stories and learn something But my attention span is so far gone My head is always aching And I don’t want to disappear but I feel like I’m too late The excitement’s gone You just sit there being perfect It stabs me in the heart to think that someone like you could exist and I still can’t appreciate this Standing on a busy sidewalk Watching all the people pass me by and realizing not a single one would notice if I And I wish I could read the way I used to I wish I could spend the day inside and not feel ashamed of wasting time I wanna get lost in stories and learn something But my attention span is so far gone My head is always aching And I don’t want to disappear but I feel like I’m too late The excitement’s gone

Writing songs out of obligation is like writing love letters to people I've never met Let this be real. Let this not be a mistake just this once. Pam, teach me about pacifism, feed me a bottle of wine and we'll pass out with the best of intentions With the most beautiful aspirations and you will never think about me again Teach me what love is because I know you've found it and I wanna find it too I wanna share it too Whisper in my ear at a party meant for everyone but me that I'm the only one here that matters Because that's the way I feel about you and I don't want to drink your poison Get it out of my face Get it out of my mouth Whistle a melody and I'll shut the fuck up Sing me an anti-war song Sing me an anti-war song Bring back the hunger. Teach me about hunger Baby I'm a goner I'm a goner I'm a goner

If you think every question you asked was met with honesty I'm sorry - not for lying but for the fact that you're so easily fooled. Or maybe I'm just a master of manipulation Do I give myself too much credit? Maybe not enough because there are times when I've said the worst things in the world with a smile on my face and I got you to smile back too and you never suspected a thing So Paul, when I joked about oblivion and said that one day there’ll be nothing but I wasn’t scared, that was a lie. I’m fucking terrified and I feel better when someone is terrified with me. And Claire when I said I was too busy to hang out on your birthday I lied, I just don’t like you. I went home to get drunk alone and yeah, that’s not something I’m proud of but hey, it was better than a shitty night with you I know this is who I am. This is the truth There will be no more sugar-coated lies or romanticizations and I know I’m setting fire to a lot of bridges I’m breaking ties that can never be fixed But now I don’t care I’ve spent enough time pretending and I’m done Mom, when I told you I was tired and I had to go to bed that was a lie I was high and cared more about listening to Frightened Rabbit than I did spending time with you after being away for six fucking months. and mike I’m not sorry for shorting you that one time you used me for alcohol and don’t you dare deny it I didn’t care because I was so alone and I needed to be accepted after years of being no one I went from being no one to being someone who got along with everyone at least the ones who mattered but how many poor fucks did I grind into the dust to get into that position? Too many to count, but I’ll try Aaron, Brian, Chaz, Austin, Nathan, Ben, Maddie, Ryan, Megan, Chris, Mary, Jim, Brandon, Kevin, Jason, Michael, Brittney, Jacob, Kyle, Ashley, Damon, Liz, Olivia, Becky, Sarah, Hunter, Jack, Katy, Raven, Lisa, Cody I know this is who I am. This is the truth There will be no more sugar-coated lies or romanticizations and I know I’m setting fire to a lot of bridges I’m breaking ties that can never be fixed But now I don’t care I’ve spent enough time pretending and I’m done Tess I never thought you were beautiful. You’re selfish. You have a horrible personality and I know this will kill you but fuck you made me miserable and it’s my own fault but that doesn’t excuse the nights you made me feel so fucking guilty when I didn’t do a thing, I was sure as hell not sorry but I’d give in every time and for what? You were an obligation. Nothing more. So fuck, good riddance, goodbye this is your last song now get out of my life I know this is who I am. This is the truth There will be no more sugar-coated lies or romanticizations and I know I’m setting fire to a lot of bridges I’m breaking ties that can never be fixed But now I don’t care I’ve spent enough time pretending and I’m done